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More than I could hope or dream of
You have poured Your favour on me
One day in the house of God is
Better than a thousand days in the world

So blessed, I can't contain it...
So much, I've got to give it away,
Your love taught me to live now...
You are more than enough for me.

Lord, You're more than enough for me
Lord, You're more than enough for me

God's child ♥

my deepest desires: go to Australia to get my degree. do humanitarian work. backpack. find my 'knight in shining armour'. and finally..MIGRATE! (:

My name is jiamin. i'm just a simple ordinary girl struggling to excel in my studies and to find my true identity. i have come to realise tht hope is, but, a very important thing for all of us; tht in the darkest moments, only if we cling on to hope can we find peace within ourselves. God bless!


Title: Jesus you're all i need.
Date: Sunday, March 08, 2009

tmr will mark the 4th week of my attachment; so 2 more weeks to go! (going to ICU tmr.) it's been a long and tiring past couple of weeks..the constant falling asleep with my lights all still on and then waking up and falling asleep again..i find myself so exhausted during the day. i cant sit for more then 5 mins without feeling sleep creeping up on me. but i've learnt so much during clinicals..not just in the form of knowledge, handling skills and wad not..it's also more about re-inforcing to me this is wad i want to do. seeing the smiles on my patient's faces, them thanking me after the treatment, seeing their improvement as the days go by, it's just rrly a great feeling. but ultimately there are those who become worse and even if it breaks my heart but tht's life..and we must believe we do more good then harm for them. and tht's the hope we cling on to as we go abt our work.

lay yen came over the other day for our Ax and it din go rrly well. she din have anything positive to say abt us except for the fact tht we wun fail. it rrly burst my bubble..cos we started clinicals with zero confidence in treating patients at all and we were just building ourselves up but aft she came i just feel so stripped of everything; i feel like im back to square ONE. got to climb up the ladder all over again. im so affected because i have expectations and CP is smth i wanna do well. hais why am i never good enough? maybe im just not hardworking enough plus im not even smart to begin with.

just so burdened abt clinical stuff and personal stuff. church was good today; indeed it gave me some peace and some air to breathe. really praying for strength for the week and grace and wisdom from God.

this weekend made me realise tht maybe i've crossed the line. the boundary was drawn long ago without me realising it. i shud have been more observant so tht i wudnt have had to go through the hurt, the tears and just being so affected by it. i found myself going back and forth questioning myself why..why am i so affected by it and i realise it's so simple..it's because you mean so much to me! and i foolishly let myself be drawn in, and i broke down all my barriers to find myself the only one who did so. it's gonna hurt me so much but i think im rrly just gonna dis-engage..i think it's just going to be for the better in the long run. wad a hard lesson this has been.

anw results are coming out real soon..and im rrly praying hard.

God help me through all this.

&so much I gotta give it away; 8:36 PM

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