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my deepest desires: go to Australia to get my degree. do humanitarian work. backpack. find my 'knight in shining armour'. and finally..MIGRATE! (:

My name is jiamin. i'm just a simple ordinary girl struggling to excel in my studies and to find my true identity. i have come to realise tht hope is, but, a very important thing for all of us; tht in the darkest moments, only if we cling on to hope can we find peace within ourselves. God bless!


Title: alot of times our happiness is just a fascade.
Date: Tuesday, February 03, 2009

well i rrly wanted to have a post right aft my exams but somehow din get round to doing it.

so exams ended admist the CNY period. neuro ended just last thurs and i absolutely do not noe how it'll turn out. but overall i think the papers kinda sucked. yea once again right. i think i rrly might have screwed them up AGAIN just as predicted. self-fulfilling prophecy they all will say; i keep saying abt this and tht abt exams tht's why it's all rrly happening.
i studied..hard. i guess maybe it's not hard enuf then. i rrly wanted to do better and pull up my grades. but i duno why it always ends up like this.
now, everytime im enjoying myself there's this thing at the back of my mind telling me i dun deserve to be hafing fun..exam results r not out yet, dun celebrate. and everytime i think abt certain things..my ans to qns in the exams i rrly feel so frustrated with myself..why din i write this ans? why did i ans in this way? how come i din think of it? i think abt such things and my heart sinks. exams always make me feel so stupid. my self-esteem and confidence just plummets alittle bit more everytime.
i start comparing why others seemed to always have it easier on them. AaargHhh! i know how sinful it is. i realised it's been a long time since i've been truly happy. there's no peace within me.

but thank you dear friends for all yur encouragements along the way esp betty and best friend.

did more visiting last weekend, ran some errands and attended a dinner. and it was super tiring.

monday had lunch with fellow classmates at Kushin-bo which was rrly SUPER good! the food as well as the company of pple (photos galore but got to find a way to get my hands on it haha). it was a pity i cudnt make it for dragonboat gathering which was ltr on in the evening.

tmr morning meeting up with genevieve for breakfast before she goes to sch! it's been ages man since we last met! WooO cheers to our friendship! we're going into our 9th year!=D

im very worried abt my grandma. i cannot imagine life without her one day.

&so much I gotta give it away; 1:28 AM

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