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So blessed, I can't contain it...
So much, I've got to give it away,
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Lord, You're more than enough for me

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my deepest desires: go to Australia to get my degree. do humanitarian work. backpack. find my 'knight in shining armour'. and finally..MIGRATE! (:

My name is jiamin. i'm just a simple ordinary girl struggling to excel in my studies and to find my true identity. i have come to realise tht hope is, but, a very important thing for all of us; tht in the darkest moments, only if we cling on to hope can we find peace within ourselves. God bless!


Title: what's going to happen next???
Date: Monday, August 25, 2008

exams ended on thurs!

but im rrly REALLY deep down extremely worried abt the papers..afraid tht im gonna do badly. they were so freaking difficult! my GPA's not even high to begin wif. it's so difficult to come to terms wif the fact tht the tot of not being able to further my studies in aust is slowly but surely creeping up to me.

well im happy now tht i can go out and enjoy myself..away from all the books

bt wen the sun sets and everyone in the family has gone to bed the tot of being stuck here while all my frens are overseas just scares and terrifies me. and i noe how close this is to coming true. n i will be letting so many pple down. esp my parents. after all these years of support from them i cant even end my education wif a degree..to a parent wad more can i b but a failure.

why cant my life be a bed of roses? why cant it be smoother-sailing where everything is all mapped out? why am i not smarter? when will my hard work pay off?

i wanted/still want to run away..from everything..it's just so hard.

i love this course and love the pple even more. but i noe im not good enuf. it scares me tht pple's lives are going to be in my hands. will i ever be good enuf i rrly wonder. i put in all i've got but wen's this heartache going to stop.

i've been re-assured tht nah i've worked so hard it will be alright..wun b tht bad..BUT bad and alright are relative. i have high expectations simply becuz i din tke the easy way. mayb i shud say silly me why din i right?

im weak. emotionally. i cant let go of things so easily. i dun c the bigger picture.

frustrated with alot of things now. even wif my parents.

i need to get out of this place. disappear.

&so much I gotta give it away; 3:56 AM

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