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my deepest desires: go to Australia to get my degree. do humanitarian work. backpack. find my 'knight in shining armour'. and finally..MIGRATE! (:

My name is jiamin. i'm just a simple ordinary girl struggling to excel in my studies and to find my true identity. i have come to realise tht hope is, but, a very important thing for all of us; tht in the darkest moments, only if we cling on to hope can we find peace within ourselves. God bless!


Title: tired.
Date: Monday, June 30, 2008

the weekends just flew by. spent it at Bedok reservoir for most of the two days where the Dragonboat Festival was held. we din win anything at the end of the whole event. for me, i think it's disppointing to the point im not sure how to describe it anymore. looking back, i've been in dragonboat for 4 years alrdy and the results i've achieved have been nth more then just mediocre. it has left me scrambling to find the ans; does the problem lie with me in tht im just not cut out to be a dragonboater. as nadia came to me aft our last race and literally buried her face on my shoulder and started crying so hard, my heart was in my gut. i was feeling so shattered and demoralised.
am i such a failure i rrly wonder. im not good at anything. not studies. not dragonboating. im trying my best here but when will it ever be enuf. i noe jolly well tht i shud b channelling my energy into planning out my work and getting down to revision but i just cant find it in me for that strength to go on. i feel lost. i feel this sinking feeling in my gut. can i keep picking myself up and trying again? i've just lost far too many fights and if there was a fire or a drive at all in the beginning, it's no longer there.
i may even be my parent's disppointment. all these years i've rrly wanted to prove not just to myself but to my parents as well tht im capable of better and tht they havent raised me in vain. but..haiz..i've yet to rrly make my parents proud. and to that im sorry mum + dad.

last night slept at about 4am or so. shit tired man. going thru the day wif my mind blank most of the time becuz im just so tired to think doesnt feel good. i nid to adjust my body clock back. today we completed comms and cp presentation. so we're now left wif research methods, stats, pbl. on top of tht there's studying tht nids to b done for practicals and sem exams are coming real soon.

i think people let you down. but can we ever expect so much from them? moreover they dun haf the obligaiton to do so. oH wells mayb im like tht to other people as well, so i shudnt judge nor comment.

&so much I gotta give it away; 9:58 PM

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