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So much, I've got to give it away,
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my deepest desires: go to Australia to get my degree. do humanitarian work. backpack. find my 'knight in shining armour'. and finally..MIGRATE! (:

My name is jiamin. i'm just a simple ordinary girl struggling to excel in my studies and to find my true identity. i have come to realise tht hope is, but, a very important thing for all of us; tht in the darkest moments, only if we cling on to hope can we find peace within ourselves. God bless!


Title: something for me to pick myself up and try again.
Date: Wednesday, June 11, 2008

well as i expected, i failed my MS practical. got a BIG freaking F for it. although yeah i said as expected but seeing the result in front of me kinda left me gaping for air, at a loss as to whatever happened and how was i supposed to go on. i must admit im not used to failing..esp failing this bad. but then again im not alone; i failed amist more then 20 others who also 'almost passed'. we all we focusing on the wrong stuff; we were all mis-informed.
however i think it's just me and how it's so difficult for me to swallow this defeat. it's almost like a slap in my face. i think i really did put in alot of effort for this practical; i had laid on my bed the last two nights thinking about those nights we stayed back practicing taping in the corridor, going to consult Freda almost every friday, and to have it amount to this failure. it's never fair.
this course really breaks us..or at least i can say that for myself..i rrly want this so badly tht's why it hurts so much. imagine fighting so hard for someting onli to noe you lost.

after two days of being in much despair i think i've dried up all my tears. and realised, more importantly, how blessed i am with people around me who have so much love to give; qing and her hugs, tricia who was the last person i'd expect to say i love you, shi min and her words of widsom, caryn and jac who just notice things. i guess Patrick was right tht things happen for a reason..i must admit i never looked at things in tht way. mayb advice from an outsider is good sometimes cos i guess they can say it from an objective point of view..but then again it's very hard for them to understand how it rrly feels like. to them it's rrly just a small matter( and definitely it's not their fault).
maybe Patrick isnt tht bad of a guy after all HAHA..even despite telling him tht i dun rrly noe how to say what's going on and tht he wun understand he still persisted in hearing me out even though it was rrly quite late alrdy.

once again im thankful and grateful for all these people around me, w/o them i dun think i wud have been able to get thru this. i guess it is thru things like tht which bring out the best in people. and i rrly need to learn frm this, pick myself up, move on and try again. this is just the beginning of much more that it is to come. i need to be strong and be prepared for the obstacles ahead.

Just glad i have a strong support group going thru all these tgt and im not alone. Praise the Lord! =)

&so much I gotta give it away; 12:05 PM

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