first and foremost..im so relieved my grandma's alright aft her procedure on thurs. it wasnt all tht successful though..the doctors din manage to remove all the stones but they did change the stent in there..so i guess this shud last a couple of yrs more..reason being they felt my grandma, becuz of her age,was on the operating table for too long so they decided to stop the procedure. it was to be a simple procedure but at the age of 93 the doctors cannot ascertain the success rate so everyone was rrly worried..but she had to go for it cuz it had reached a point where the stent HAD to be removed. Anw im rrly glad granny's home and resting well.

I realised in recent years tht i've started to feel in-debted to my granny for taking care of me all these 20 years. i rmb her cooking for me, feeding me, bathing me, patting me to sleep, walking me to kindergarten and all the other things tht my parents nvr got round to doing. i love my grandma!

anyway on thurs i also experienced some of the lowest points in my life. it wasnt anything tht happened but juz some things tht someone said to me that rrly hit me hard. i tink to some of the pple out there it was juz a trivial matter n tht i shudnt read too much into things n tht i shud have juz shrugged it off. but it's really so hard to express it in words how it hurts. im touched tht Qing was willing to share wif me an experience she had similar to mine and i rrly truly noe she understands how it feels, which i dun think it's easy to empathise wif unless you have experienced it. but nonetheless im thankful and grateful for those who were there for me when i needed it most; conforting and toking some sense into me. sometimes it's juz really hard to keep the faith and know why and what im fighting so hard for.

finally went to trim my hair after weeks of comtemplating shud i or shud i not. haha. did my eye brows as well!

Oh yes and my uncle was in town last week( becuz of my grandma)..and he was relating to us abt his son's classmates. well, his son's in a British International school in KL. His classmates hardly study..often going overseas even during term and missing lessons for 2 to 3 weeks at once. and he was saying wen they were going to break for the term and his teacher was telling this German boy to study during the hols..and guess wad tht boy's mum told the teacher; den do u work during the holidays?! OMG right! in spore where got such things! well i tink since these pple all come frm ULTRA wealthy families and i guess they've made their fortunes..there's not rrly much purpose for their kids to study so hard. i think they juz go to sch for socialisation. and Abdullah Badawi's grandson is my couz's classmate! haha! though quite a nasty boy frm wad i heard. anw i think i've said it before but sometimes im jealous of wad my couz has..he has/can haf anything under the sun tht money can buy and the other thing is tht he has good family support; his parents aint working anymore( made enuf money alrdy). the downside though i think wud b tht he isnt made as resilient as us living in spore and i dun think he'll survive if he comes here to study..and i think he'll haf alot of catching up to do later on in his life. looking forward to his whole family coming down in june/july and staying wif us. i think he wud haf finished 6th Grade by then :)

alright i think i nid to buck up and get on track wif my studies!