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So much, I've got to give it away,
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my deepest desires: go to Australia to get my degree. do humanitarian work. backpack. find my 'knight in shining armour'. and finally..MIGRATE! (:

My name is jiamin. i'm just a simple ordinary girl struggling to excel in my studies and to find my true identity. i have come to realise tht hope is, but, a very important thing for all of us; tht in the darkest moments, only if we cling on to hope can we find peace within ourselves. God bless!


Title: feel so trapped
Date: Friday, February 08, 2008

seeing your name being mentioned in someone else's blog..knowing tht you are remembered after all these times even though you seldom contact each other is truly a heartwarming and incredible feeling. it's rrly hard to describe how great the feeling is to haf touched someone's life without even knowing it..and i realise i derive so much pleasure from it.

read (da)jiamin's blog and she mentioned once again about the sms i sent her during As tht she has saved in her hp all this time. in all honesty i cant rmb wad i said to her but it gave her new perspective to do better for the nxt paper aft the demoralising Maths paper 1. aft i read tht in her blog i tot i cld juz cry man! and i juz wanted to give her a huggg. HAHA. i havent spoken nor met up wif her for the longest time ever! damn!

this has been the reason why since young i've always wanted to b in the healthcare line.
although yes the study of the human body is indeed intriguing and wad's more it's learning abt God's amazing works..how perfect our body's been made; the angle our bones are aligned in our body and its' thickness to withstand body forces is to such accuracy there no debate abt it
but i think for me, personally, it's more about how i'll b able to help pple and get them better.
i wanna go to a third world country to help the destitue and the sick.
the worse the conditions are i wanna b there to help..to b tht light in the window for them..and make tht difference in their life.
it's rrly my heart's desire to get out of spore..either migrate to a slower paced country where it's not abt rushing to c as many patients as possible but to b able to engage wif the patients..or to travel around the world to visit the most poverty-stricken places to help the pple.

shimin asked me the other day..why do i wanna migrate juz because i wanna carve a life of my own when i can do it right here in spore..and actually it set me thinking why did i actually have such a thinking.. why has this desire burned so strongly in me all these years..
and then i finally realised the reason why;
i've been in my comfort zone all these years. i have everything; a nice hse, we own a car, i go to school, i have frens and family. and it will still be like this now or 5 yrs ltr or 10 yrs ltr. i feel like there's nth for me to fight for. the stark reality in working life is tht the opportunities will be given to scholars (well we all noe how spore works..the brightest get everything ) and so aft a few years of working my ass off i'll juz be resigned to being a normal emplyee..to remain invisible and do wad im supposed to do. life wld juz b a monotonus and mundane drumbeat.
whereas overseas..i'll have to start wif nth..i've got to build my own life frm scratch. away from home n familiar grounds. wen i finally rch somewhere and i carved a name for myself at least i can rrly say i struggled..for once. now wad im struggling for is juz to pass exams so i'll get a job and earn just enuf to b sufficient to meet my needs..the drive to succeed juz wldnt b there because my parents r here...i'll always feel like i can fall back on them no matter wad. i rrly need to get out of my comfort zone.

once again someone said something condescending abt my course during visiting today.
really sad because it's frm a close cousin. and she's younger then me. i mean if it's frm someone im absolutely not close wif i wldn't rrly b so bothered. i mean..haiz..got nth much to say abt such behaviour anymore. and the thing was tht i was trying so hard to help her cuz she was complaining of back pain. seriously i shudnt have bothered. HAIZ.

&so much I gotta give it away; 10:56 PM

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