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So much, I've got to give it away,
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my deepest desires: go to Australia to get my degree. do humanitarian work. backpack. find my 'knight in shining armour'. and finally..MIGRATE! (:

My name is jiamin. i'm just a simple ordinary girl struggling to excel in my studies and to find my true identity. i have come to realise tht hope is, but, a very important thing for all of us; tht in the darkest moments, only if we cling on to hope can we find peace within ourselves. God bless!


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Date: Wednesday, August 22, 2007

im so sick and tired of myself.
was sitting at Miss Clarity Cafe wif my classmates this aftnoon waiting for our meals 2 cum when it suddenly dawned on me tht standing up frm sitting dwn is a drop in Blood Pressure!!
but in the test i actually answered rise in blood pressure.
my expression went for realisation to disbelieve to frustration to anger and den back to frustration and den disbelieve. how cld i let such a thing happen manz.
i juz let a B slip right out of my hands..i dun wanna fail..i rrly studied so hard for this leh!!
it's a freaking 20 mark essay qn for Christ's sake!
i rrly hate myself. i duno wad to do wif myself. i cant blame anyone.
i always let such things happen..wadz rong wif me!! every time cum out of a test surely got regret nv do smth...or do smth rong..
wad's worse this time is tht it's not tht i dun noe how to do leh!! how cld such a thing happen!!
i wanna cry!! i wanna shout out loud into space!! i wanna throw smth at someone!!
for me eating doesnt get rid of my pain..or anything else..the pain just continues to eat me up.......i tot this cld have been the turning pt tht i cld show my parents tt i cld do well and mke them proud..i rrly rrly put in my heart and soul and strived so so hard for this...this feeling sucks! damn right sucks manz!! everytime i think abt wad little i can do abt the matter the pain juz worsens. ARGHHH!!!!!!!!! im so disppointed in myself.

aside frm clinicals this sem is almost over. and looking back, wow, it's like almost 4 months juz passed like tht. reminiscing it wif my frens today on the surface it seemed like we so easily juz breezed thru it n now we're here, but actually trying to recall the journey it's rrly been one full of ups and downs..obstacles..trials and tribulations..it was a rough jouney. rrly experienced alot of things i nv did before in my life...
and i forsee so So much more 2 cum in the cuming sem and the following yrs.
but i wld say wif frens the going rrly gets easier. all the crazy jokes and stupid outburst laughters!! haha..

anw tonight's the premier of Grey's anatomy season 3!! yeaHHH!! like finally la..waited for so long liaoz!! and i was surprised almost all of you watched the other seasons also!! like i've actually had alot of difficulty finding pple hu shared my excitement abt the show..it's rrly an amazing show..haha
oh ya tricia we'll definitely set a day and all of us can have a Grey's anatomy marathon and finish watching everything!!! *excited*

*trying to find the peace inside of me*

&so much I gotta give it away; 5:06 PM

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